Jeon So Min Worries Fans With Concerning Post About How Sad and Lonely She Is

“Since when was I so alone?”

Running Man‘s Jeon So Min recently shared a long post about her true thoughts, and the way she described her sadness and loneliness is worrying fans.

The post reads as follows:

The truth is, I’m really sad right now. I’m sure people aren’t really interested, but when someone sees my blank face and asks if something’s wrong, that might be me being loved.

But the fact that no matter how hard I look through my contact list on my phone, there isn’t a single person who can run over to me when I need them means I’m not loved. Since when was I so alone?

I saw a friend of mine reading my book and shedding tears. I was happy and thankful for that more than any other expression. I felt like I was being understood. She acknowledged my interests, which I had been longing for for so long. She was proud of me. She was proud of the stories that people tried not to listen to and didn’t think highly of.

If you have the leisure, please open my book. You might be tired, uninterested, and annoyed by my expression of my feelings, but I wrote it down in a book. I wonder if you would have come over to hug me if you knew this story. Nah, you probably would have been the same. That’s just my hope, anticipation, and misunderstanding. An uninteresting story that won’t go far.

– Jeon So Min

Along with the post, Jeon So Min shared a photo of her recently published book of essays called, You Can Drink And Call Me.

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