Jihyo Reveals She Suffers From Anxiety, Depression, And Fear As She Apologized For Her Previous Post

“Even breathing became difficult for me.”

TWICE‘s Jihyo became a hot topic recently after she expressed her frustration towards the groundless rumors that began to circulate from her brief absence during the 2019 Mnet Asian Music Awards.

As netizens began to debate whether or not it was rude of her to lash out, Jihyo decided to take it into her own hands to explain her side of the story.

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She first began by talking about how her fear of people started to grow back in March 2018. During that time, she was falsely accused of being involved in Jung Joon Young‘s illegal sex cam scandal.

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After a ridiculous rumor about me started circulating back in March of last year, I think my fear of meeting people began to grow.

Even the time when I cried at the airport was because of the huge terror I felt towards the people who took photos of me, looked at me, and shouted at me. I felt so scared about how these people would think of me and what kind of mindset they had while looking at me.

— Jihyo

But when her dating news with Kang Daniel was released just a couple of months later, she had to receive medical attention for her anxiety, depression and growing fear.

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And in August, my private life was revealed. Groundless rumors began to circulate and all the negative feelings like anxiety, depression, and fear grew immensely. It became difficult for me to stand in front of people, say even a word, or to even perform.

My fears began too large that I had to go to the hospital during our tour. I received consultation and medication but they didn’t help me much.

— Jihyo

Jihyo pointed out that everything has been escalating ever since her debut when she was forced to face malicious commenters but could do nothing about it.

During the time that I mentioned – no, ever since I debuted, I’ve faced endless amounts of people talking bad about me, mocking me, and cursing at me. I was so hurt by it and enraged, but I had work to do, I had my career to continue, and I had my fans, so I just did nothing about it.

— Jihyo

She hopes that despite what people may think of her previous post, ONCE will understand that she treasures them and only hopes to be upfront and honest with her fans.

There was never a time when I approached ONCEs with anything but my sincerity. There was never a time when ONCEs weren’t precious to me. There was never a time I stopped worrying about ONCEs, and I was completely sincere yesterday as well.

What I’m most sorry about is that I know so well that our team and ONCEs are facing another very difficult time right now. So I’m so sorry about talking through my emotions yesterday.

— Jihyo

 

Jihyo concluded by stating how more turbulent times will come in her career, but she only hopes that TWICE and ONCE will be able to hold fast and protect their happiness and love.

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I’m sure that since I’m a celebrity and an idol, there will be many issues and rumors to arise for various reasons, but I don’t want us to lose our happiness, our joy, and bright smiles to something else.

I’m sorry for making you worry, and thank you, ONCE.

— Jihyo

Read her full post below:

Realizing that ONCEs perhaps could have been hurt and disappointed by yesterday’s V-App chat, I apologize.

Let me try to slowly explain everything.

After a ridiculous rumor about me started circulating back in March of last year, I think my fear of meeting people began to grow.

Even the time when I cried at the airport was because of the huge terror I felt towards the people who took photos of me, looked at me, and shouted at me. I felt so scared about how these people would think of me and what kind of mindset they had while looking at me.

And in August, my private life was revealed. Groundless rumors began to circulate and all the negative feelings like anxiety, depression, and fear grew immensely. It became difficult for me to stand in front of people, say even a word, or to even perform.

My fears began too large that I had to go to the hospital during our tour. I received consultation and medication but they didn’t help me much. Time went by and our Japanese tour began, but ever since our Japanese performance right before MAMA, it became much too difficult for me to be in crowded places.

I cried for all throughout the 3 consecutive days of performances from my fear and I just wanted to hide. I performed at MAMA in that condition. I had to face a lot more people than normal, I had to talk and perform, and even breathing became difficult for me.

I was worried that I would start crying again at the airport and that I would show everyone that I’m suffering, so I decided to return back to Korea at a later time than the rest of the members.

During the time that I mentioned – no, ever since I debuted, I’ve faced endless amounts of people talking bad about me, mocking me, and cursing at me. I was so hurt by it and enraged, but I had work to do, I had my career to continue, and I had my fans, so I just did nothing about it.

This is all there is to say about MAMA.

I’m not asking you to emphasize with me. I’m not venting, and I’m not asking you to understand. I just wanted to explain why I ended up posting negatively about some people.

There was never a time when I approached ONCEs with anything but my sincerity. There was never a time when ONCEs weren’t precious to me. There was never a time I stopped worrying about ONCEs, and I was completely sincere yesterday as well.

What I’m most sorry about is that I know so well that our team and ONCEs are facing another very difficult time right now. So I’m so sorry about talking through my emotions yesterday. I saw the posts that my members posted while trying to explain to ONCEs and our team. I also saw what ONCEs were talking about, and I decided that it was best for me to write my own explanation and organize what happened through this post.

The reason why I sing, perform, and converse in front of ONCEs is because I truly, sincerely wish for my and ONCEs’ happiness. The reason why I continue in this career is because I have ONCEs who love me and embrace me warmly. I can persevere through many different things, so I hope ONCEs don’t have to look at things that can hurt them.

I’m sure that since I’m a celebrity and an idol, there will be many issues and rumors to arise for various reasons, but I don’t want us to lose our happiness, our joy, and bright smiles to something else.

I’m sorry for making you worry, and thank you, ONCE.

— Jihyo

Source: Xports News
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